most ppl dont know about me.. 

i have had a problem with my eyes for some time.. but most ppl dont know how serious it is.. 

ever since the first time i went to the eye doctor there has been some concern with some scar tissue blocking my sight in my right eye.. 

well.. i went to an eye specialist and he told me where the scar tissue was. they said when i turn 21 i could consider getting surgery on my eyes. 

fast forward to a couple years back. my eye doctor told me there is nothing more he could do with my right eye.. im practically blind in that eye.. and my left eye.. trying to see for both is getting just as worse as my right one.. and if i dont do something i could go blind.

fast forward to my 21st birthday.. i went to get my new license and i had to take an eye test.. well.. i couldnt see the bottom line.. so i told the guy i dont know.. he said if i couldnt read it.. then i couldnt get my license.. i was like.. oh.. dang.. so i tried reallllly reallly hard to see.. and finally got the bottom line. 

over the past year my vision has been getting worse and worse. so i finally decided it was time to look at my opinion.. i have my credit cards almost paid off.. and i have enough money saved (which i was gonna use for a kayak but this is a little more important) to go ahead and see what i can do. 

i have always down played how bad my vision has gotten cuz it scares me a little.. like what if they cant fix my eyes and i do go blind.. that would suck. so thursday this week. i will find out.. just how bad it is.. and see what we can do about it. im super nervous about it. but i know everything will work out. 

so. thought everyone should know.. so they know how to pray about it.

im hoping that it doesnt effect my job.. or my ministry with film.. cuz what if the doctor says “shanna you shouldnt stare are a computer all the time” i would be completelyyyyyy upset